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Sunday, April 30, 2006

"I'm peeling back the layers like an onion girl, don't try to save me, just stay away 'cause I might make you cry, like an onion girl..."

-Holly Cole, Onion Girl

I have an idea!... I know... stop the presses, this is a moment to go down in history.

This blog has been very neglected lately, mainly because there is lots going on and none of it is really blog-material. But meanwhile, my poor blog has been feeling abandoned. So has my camera! So I think that every day or two, I'm going to at least post a picture. Either one from the internet, or one that I take with my camera.

Because even if my brain isn't currently working, my blog should be.

I slept for nine straight hours last night... it was great... now I need to go watch LOST. Then I need to practice. The singer-girl that I'm going to be playing with mailed me her music, so I guess I should probably start learning it.

I have such a need to be in the woods right now. Sigh. One of the piano-people that I recently met has been aching for nature as well, and we're going to go on a hike soon. Until then, I guess I'll just have to wait it out.


Saturday, April 29, 2006

"I'll think of you all painted with the night..."

-Patty Griffin, Peter Pan

It is 9:44 PM on a Saturday night, and I am going to bed. I plan on being asleep within the next ten minutes. Sugar and Lugsy are already sleeping... I guess it has been a long day for everyone.

Sweet dreams, and much love.

Friday, April 28, 2006

"She had a couple years there she got lost in..."

-Christine Kane

This blog needs an update. It is feeling neglected.

I just found out that I get to see Rosie Thomas again!!! She is going to be in Seattle on May 13th, and I have that day off, and tickets were only $12. I'm excited, the last time that I saw her was on my last birthday and it was great.

Anyways... my brain doesn't seem to be in the mood to blog, so here is another great survey to make it look like I have lots to say even though I don't. Enjoy!

Name 3 schools you went to:
Rowe Junior High (Just like Tanya Harding)!
Milwaukie High School
Southern Oregon University

Name 3 things in your purse/backpack:
ipod (Franklin)

Name 3 things that u want right now:

Name 3 places you go on a daily basis:
I don't think there is any place that I go to EVERY day

Name 3 favorite fruits:

Three names you go by:

Three of your Favorite foods:
Pary Pizza
(I know, I'm a health-nut)

Three things you are wearing right now:
Black pants
T-shirt I got at Goodwill
Children's leg-warmers on my arms (the compression helps my arms feel better)

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Who is in the house with you?

Who did you get this survey from?

Who are you thinking about right now?
Jessica, because I talked to her last night and I'm worried that she is stressed.

Who did you last talk to on the phone?

Whos house did you last go to?
Dad and Karen's

Whose birthday is next?

Who was the last person you told you loved?

Who gets on your nerves the most?

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Where do you live?

Where is your phone?
Right next to me, even though it is turned off.

Where is/are your parent(s)?
Probably getting ready for school/work.

Where do you sleep?
In my bed.

Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?

Where in your house are you?
My room

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What was the last thing you ate?
I haven't ate anything yet, but I had two cups of coffee.

What color shirt are you wearing?
It is a greenish-white. Weird.

What is the closest item near you that is blue?
A CD cover

What do/did you like best about school?

What kind of surgery have you had?
Ear surgery when I was little, then tonsils and my knees. I'm pretty sure that is all. Unless wisdom teeth counts...

What do you wear more; jeans or shorts?
Jeans, but that is just because of the weather.

What is the last movie you watched?
Not sure.

Whats the last song you heard?
"She don't like Roses" by Christine Kane. I'm listening to it right now. Its sooo pretty. My new job is refreshing my love for Celtic music.

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When did you start school?
I think I was 4 when I started preschool.

When did you meet your best friend?
Then I would have to define my best friend, and that is tiring.

When is your birthday?
October 22nd.

When did you last go to the mall?
A couple of months ago when I met up with Drew and Emily.

When was the last time you bought a pair of pants?
I think it was a pretty long time ago.

When did you last burn a candle?
A couple of days ago.

When did you last see your dad?
Last weekend.

Saturday, April 22, 2006

He told it to me at a time of confusion, when I had reached the point of believing everything and nothing about him."

-The Great Gatsby

I got on the train yesterday morning and headed to Portland, where I was picked up by the father-unit and we drove to Zachary's school and him and I rehearsed his trumpet piece that I'm playing piano for. Then we went back and I spent the evening with Zach, Karen, Dad, and Simon-dog. Zach had his performance this morning and I think that he did VERY well, especially since this was his first time performing an entire piece by himself. I was a very proud sister. It has been so fun to be able to do this with the Zachlet, and I really really hope that this was just the first of many musical experiences that we get to have together.

After Zach's performance was over, Dad drove me to Mom's house and she and I (and Ernie of course) did nothing together until it was time for my train to leave. We passed the time at the train station by playing with my digital camera, which I'm pretty sure entertained everyone around us as well.

Now I'm back in Seattle. And soon I will be in my soft, comfy bed... then my alarm will go off. So sad.

Wednesday, April 19, 2006

"Hours of time on the telephone line to talk about things to come, sweet dreams and flying machines in pieces on the ground..."

-James Taylor, Fire and Rain

Last night after work, I met up with Scotty, Rebecca, and two of Scott's friends that will be moving here soon. We went out to dinner and it was fun, despite the fact that I was very very very tired. Rebecca and I are such freakozoids when we're together. I think we were kind of scaring Scott's friends, but luckily Scott sat in between us and that helped.

Gina and I are going out tonight when I get off of work, because we don't see eachother much lately with our clashing work schedules. We see eachother in the morning when we aren't quite awake, and at night when we're both super tired, so you can only imagine the quality of our conversations.

Something really scary happened a few days ago with one of my Seattle peeps. I don't want to go into details here, because its not my business to share it with the world, but I'm really worried about him, and its one of those things where I don't know if I'm helping him or just making it worse... but either way it is really scary, and I'm trying to figure out what is best for him... which is scary in itself since lately I don't feel like I know what is best for anyone...

In other news, my dreams have just been WEIRD... last night I fell out of a plane and swam in the ocean for awhile. It was fun. But I woke up with a headache.

Anyways, yeah... off to work!

Monday, April 17, 2006

"I'm blowing in from deep from water..."

-Kate and Steve, "Sirens"

There is alot going on and I don't have the time or energy to write about most of it, but it looks like I may have finally found a solution to my living situation!

The thought of having to muster up the money to move soon when I am still trying to make up for two months of unemployment is stressful... not to mention the fact that I'm in the process of starting a million new projects and am pretty much saying good-bye to free time for awhile... but knowing that I'm going to be living with Kat lightens the load. I mean, come on, look at us in that picture! Don't YOU want to live with us?!?

Sunday, April 16, 2006

It's like in the great stories... the ones that really mattered. Full of darkness and danger they were, and sometimes you didn't want to know the end because how could the end be happy? How could the world go back to the way it was when so much bad had happened? But in the end it's only a passing thing this shadow, even darkness must pass. A new day will come, and when the sun shines it'll shine out the clearer. Those were the stories that stayed with you, that meant something even if you were too small to understand why. But I think I do understand, I know now folk in those stories had lots of chances of turning back, only they didn't. They kept going because they were holding on to something...That there's some good in the world, and it's worth fighting for.

I watched Lord of the Rings (The Two Towers) today, and I had forgot how much I love that quote. It gives me chills every time I hear it.

Saturday, April 15, 2006

"I have no idea what has been going on lately and I just wish you would come over and explain things..."

-Rilo Kiley, Plane Crash in C

I found some music people via Craigslist that I'm going to be joining up with in the near future. One of them is a singer who wants a piano player, the other one is a piano player who just wants another piano person to hang out with. Should be fun.

I sent in an application today to volunteer at the Planned Parenthood in Seattle. I'm a little worried that my schedule won't work with any of their volunteer openings, but I guess we'll see. If I don't end up volunteering there, I'll just find some place else. But I have to do something... I try not to delve into politics on my blog, but all of this anti-abortion talk/action has me sooo nervous about the slippery slope that may follow. I don't want to go on a big blog-tangent about it, mainly because my thoughts aren't organized enough, but also because I have to go to work soon. But seriously... in a world where women are raped left and right, I don't understand how anyone can believe that abortion should declared Wrong. And knowing that there are plenty of people that think that, I'm so scared at what will be declared wrong next. Man... I'm going to stop now because I sense a tangent waiting to come out.

So yeah... I have to do something, and unfortunately the only thing that my life/schedule will allow me to do is give a little bit of my time volunteering each week. But at least it is something.

You Are a Blue Flower

A blue flower tends to represent peace, openness, and balance.
At times, you are very delicate like a cornflower.
And at other times, you are wise like an iris.
And more than you wish, you're a little cold, like a blue hydrangea.

Sometimes the blogthings know me better than I know myself. That should probably have me worried... oh well.

Wednesday, April 12, 2006

"I'm foolish and crazy, i just think that maybe I've got alot of things to figure out..."

-Rosie Thomas

I had a really intense dream last night that caused me to wake up with a rapid heart beat, only because it was so incredibly real. (Aside from the fact that two of the people in my dream were from the cast of LOST). It would take forever to type out the whole dream, but what it boils down to is that I was working in a store and two guys came in (they had masks on that concealed their identities) and one of them was shooting at me so I shot and killed one of them, but it turned out that the one I killed wasn't the one that had the gun. So I killed an innocent person and let the guilty one get away, which officially made me a criminal. So I ran home and hid from the police, but soon everyone found out, and I was officially "Wanted". Then the guy with the gun (still disguised) came to my house and shot me in the chest, and in my dream I actually felt lots and lots of pain, and I ran outside and was in downtown Seattle and the guy was still chasing me and I was bleeding everywhere, so I broke the window of a toystore. At first I was shaking the window as hard as I could and it wouldn't break, so I punched it and my hand and arm was all bloody, (to go along with my bloody chest), and I jumped through the window and ran in and hid inside all of the big foofy little girl dresses. They were all either white or light pink and I got blood all over them, and I could still here the guy outside shooting at me, and then he got in the store and was coming towards me, and then I woke up.

That's the short version. That is leaving out hiding from the police INSIDE a police car, (it worked in my dream), and how my apartment was a weird mixture of my apartment and Mom's house, and how the weather was all over the place... well, yeah, it was a long dream. And I was freaking out when I woke up. I was sweating, and my heart was beating like a drum, and it took a good minute and a half for my brain to fully realize that it hadn't really happened. But seriously, I woke up and I was thinking "I can't believe I killed someone" and it was freaking me out. Then I remembered that it wasn't real. Trippy.

It was sooooo intense that I got up and immediatly got online to find one of those dream dictionary things, which I usually take with a grain of salt, but I dunno... According to four different sources, my dream means that I have aggresive feelings and hidden anger, and that I'm experiencing confrontation and feeling victimized. It also says that i'm imposing self-punishment on myself because I'm having feelings of guilt and shame...

Lately, sleeping seems to be taking more energy than staying awake.

Tuesday, April 11, 2006

"Caught a ride with the moon, I know you well better than I used to, haze all clouded up in my mind in the daze of why it could've never been"

-Tori Amos, Tear in Your Hand

Here is another survey to make it look like I am saying alot, while in reality I'm just answering questions that take up lots of room. Enjoy.

Q1) Last thing you burned while attempting to cook?
I kind of burned my Party Pizza today, but it was still really good.

Q2)Describe yourself in three words?
Many many layers.

Q3) How long does it take to get ready for your day?
Including checking my e-mail and listening to a handful of good songs, I'd say about half an hour.

Q4) Favorite place to blow 50 bucks?
The Music Warehouse

Q5) How many people have you thought were "the one"?
I'm going to ignore this question.

Q6) What is something that turns you off from the opposite sex?
Guys that need drama in order to feel like a relationship is "real". And guys that think that if a girl doesn't cry and scream and be an emotional popcorn-ball every five minutes then she must not really care about them. That's just lame. And for gals that are like my sister and I, it makes life and relationships very frusterating.

Q7) What kind of car do you drive?
the kind that doesn't exist.

Q8) What's in your CD player right now?
Tori Amos, "Little Earthquakes"

Q9) What celebrity would you have coffee with?
"Coffee"? Heh heh...okay, if you're talking about the kind of coffee that you have at Starbucks, then I would say Bill Maher or John Stewart. (If you don't know why I thought the "coffee" reference was humerous, then don't ask).

Q10) What celebrity would you NOT have coffee with?
? I dunno ?

Q11) What kind of toothpaste do you use?

Q12) What time do you usually go to bed?
Anywhere from 10 PM to 3 AM.

Q13) Last movie you saw?
I just watched RENT, but if you're talking about in the theatre then it might've been when I saw The Producers with Meagan. I don't really go to theatres that much. I like waiting for the video. Then I can drink wine while I watch the movie. :)

Q14) Last TV show you watched
Well, I caught up on Everwood today thanks to my mom, who taped the last few episodes for me. And allow me to say that it was creeping me out how much Ephram and I are on the same page!

Q15) Who is your best friend?
I hate picking just one! But my sister pretty much has the right to that title.

Q16) Who in your family do you best get along with?
I can't pick just one, and I'm very grateful for that. :)

Q17) Who do you have a crush on?
My boyfriend, Anthony Rapp.

Q18) What time is it right now?
9:44 PM

Q19) Are you planning a vacation/travel soon?
No, but I really really really want to go to Ashland again sometime in the next few months. But first I have to save up the money...

Q20) When/Where was the last time you traveled?
The beginning of last month, to Alaska.

Q21) How many times have you been in love?
This question makes me feel complicated, so I won't answer it.

Q22) How old will you be in 10 years?
34... whoa...

Q23) Where do you see yourself in 10 years?
I don't know, and I don't feel the need to know. Future Schmuture.

Q24) Sinful snacking weakness?
Pretty much anything. :)

Q25) Roller Coasters?
Yes please.

Q26) Ever run out of gas?

Q27) Ever been on a train?

Q28) Ever been on a blind date?
I've never been on a "date", let alone a "blind date"!

Q29) Ever been to Europe?
Nope. :(

Q30) What would you do if you could be the opposite sex for one day?
This might sound weird, but I'd walk down a crowded street downtown. As a woman, I'm so used to being stared at and whistled at and talked to with dirty words... it would seriously be interesting to walk around without that.

Q31) Would you tell anyone it was really you?

Q32) Ever been arrested?

Q33) Have a crush on anyone you work with?
I've had soooo many jobs... probably.

Q34) What is something you believe in?
Nature. Sounds cheesy... but man, I love being out in nature. I want to go camping sooooo bad right now.

Q35) What is something you fear?
Something awful happening to anybody in my family.

Q36) Big or small?

Q37) What is the worst physical pain you have ever experienced?
Blah... I dunno.

Q38) What is your favorite television show?
Sex in the City, LOST, or Party of Five, totally depends on my mood.

Q39) Ever photoshopped yourself to look better in a picture?
No, I've never used photoshop.

Q40) Tell us something about your childhood?
Reading was my ultimate passion, for a really really really long time.

Q41) What would it cost you to flash the person next to you?
Not much. Nudity Schmudity.

Q42) Best time to catch you in a good mood?
When I'm drinking wine.

Q43) If you could be anything for one day, what would it be?

Q44) Most prized possession?
My piano.

Q45) Would you ever sell it/for how much?
I really hope I never have to get rid of it.

Q46) What is one of your pet peeves?
People who talk trash about me behind my back but when I'm actually there they act like we're best friends. (Thank goodness I don't work there anymore).

Q47) Favorite kind of ice cream?
All of them! But at the moment, Phish Food sounds great.

Q48) What song are you listening to right now?
"Tear in Your Hand" by Tori Amos has been on repeat for at least an hour and I really need to put on a different song... but it is soooo great.

Q49) If you could sucker punch one person who would it be?
Um... two words: Sophomore Year. (If you don't know who i'm reffering to, please don't ask).

Q50) Would you like to tell us one of your secrets?
Nope. But thanks for asking!

"I wish we could open our eyes to see in all directions at the same time..."

-Death Cab for Cutie, Marching Bands of Manhattan

Scotty and Rebecca and I went out to dinner last night after I got off of work. It was fun. And the only reason that I'm blogging right now is so I can post this picture.

I have the whole day off! I'm going to do my taxes. Yay.

I'm sure I'll be blogging later. Because I can.

Sunday, April 09, 2006

"That was long ago, the only one who knows what I was back then is me..."

-Kate and Steve

I had a really good weekend at Dad and Karen's house. I went so Zachary and I could get in some practice before his performance in a couple of weeks. We met with his teacher at a local high school, then went home and had a fun night with Betty, Grandpa Don and Elaine. It was a very relaxing weekend. Which is always nice. It was great to play music with the Zachlet and to be able to hang out with him, since I don't get to do either of those things NEARLY as much as I would like.

I got back to Seattle about an hour ago. I rode back with Amber, and we stopped along the way at a really cute/perfect/heavenly diner that had great food, good music, and nice waitors. We were there for a really long time and then finally decided that we should go home, since apparently they don't let people live in diners. Go figure.

"Of that part that is beyond the life story, beyond the story of the life, there is - alas, or perhaps thank mercy - no telling."


I just finished reading Wicked, and it was such a great book. I started it quite awhile ago, then went on a hiatus from reading it when I went to San Fran and Alaska, then finally picked it back up again last week. It is a great story of the line between good and evil and how easy it is for that line to become blurred in the midst of life's unfair twists and turns. It is also a tale of how everyone has their own story, which is something that I think many people forget, and how quickly life can become too complicated for anyone's own good. If I'm making this book sound like it is depressing, it's not. But despite the fact that it is about Witches and the Emerald City and Castles and such, it is a story that speaks profoundly about some of life's major truths. And I know that I'll for sure never look at the Wicked Witch of the West the same way!

I'm heading back to Seattle tonight. I had a fun visit here at dad's, (as you can probably see from the previous posts), but I'll write about that later when I have the pictures to go with it.

peace out.
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Saturday, April 08, 2006

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