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Saturday, December 31, 2005

"There's always retrospect when you're looking back to light a clearer path..."

-The Indigo Girls, Watershed

I'm going to copy Meagan and post my first blog sentence from every month of this past year. Because I can.

After Amber got her car out of the ditch and the scary dogs stopped threatening her life, we walked to the Whichita Pub and had lots of yummy drinks.

The new Tori CD is great, and I was so excited this morning when I was reading The Stranger and saw that she would be in town, right by where I work, on April 22nd.

I am SO glad that Jessica and Amber came up this weekend.

Now that I actually have time to read all the books that I want to, I'm finding poodle amounts of joy in re-reading books, which is something that I don't usually do.

I had a dream last night that I was back at the place that I lived in with The Boys during my Junior year at SOU.

Have you all heard the latest Bruce CD?

Hi Meagan!

Well folks, I spent a few hours today practicing and got absolutely nowhere.

I just found my favorite black sweatshirt!!!

I'm soooo happy right now.

This is the only day off that I'll have for the next six days, so I have been practicing like crazy.

I got back to my happy little Seattle apartment around 10 PM on Tuesday night.

Yay, that was fun.

I was going to do a huge entry about everything that has happened this year... it was going to be long and introspective and all of that blah blah. But I changed my mind.

What it boils down to is that I have amazing people in my life. And while I do pride myself on being strong and independent, its amazing to have such great poodlish people in my life. I have soooo much love for all of you. Hopefully I've shown all of you that. Because you all mean more to me than I'll ever be able to put into words.

This was a great year.

Thursday, December 29, 2005

"All those voices, they whisper though my walls, they talk of falling fast, they say I'm losing it all..."

-The Indigo Girls, Nashville

I got back to my happy little Seattle apartment around 10 PM on Tuesday night. (OH NO, I JUST REALIZED THAT I FORGOT TO CALL MOM AND TELL HER THAT I ARRIVED HERE SAFELY! Um, mom? I arrived safely...) Stefani and Gina are both in town and wanted to hang out but I was sooooo tired and wanted to go to bed early. That kind of fell through... as always.

Yesterday was longgggg because I was way tired. I worked until 4 PM, then came home and Gina came over to drop off a few boxes of piano books/music. She figured that since she is moving here in a couple of months that she should bring up some stuff, and what better to bring than her piano music? Now I have lots of toys to play with! I'm so glad that she came over because I had been in a not-good mood. I am so hormonal right now... I feel like I should have a sticker on me that says "Caution: May burst into tears at any moment for no apparent reason." But I can't seem to find a place that sells those stickers. Anyways, Gina and I played piano for awhile and then she had to leave, and I practiced for a couple hours. And guess what? I played through the ENTIRE Chopin Scherzo without music! About freakin time...

I'm going to spend the next few days hanging out with Scotty, Rebecca, Gina and Stefani. Then, on Tuesday, I have a very super-special-poodle visiting me! And I'm sooooo excited that she is coming.

Your Brain's Pattern

Your mind is a firestorm - full of intensity and drama.
Your thoughts may seem scattered to you most of the time...
But they often seem strong and passionate to those around you.
You are a natural influencer. The thoughts you share are very powerful and persuading.

Tuesday, December 27, 2005

The Pez Family Christmas!

Okay, so here is the scoop... I devoted a significant amount of time earlier today to writing a very entertaining blog entry, and then mommy's computer decided that it wanted to go to bed, and then my blog entry went bye-bye. But check Mom and Rebecca's blogs for reports! Here is the VERY condensed version of my Christmas report: Scotty, Rebecca and I arrived in Milwaukie a little after midnight on Saturday night/Sunday morning. I was very tired but couldn't really sleep, and then I got up a little after 6 AM on Christmas morning to bond with Mommy and Ernyest. Gammie and Joe were here by breakfast time and then the day progressed in a lovely Christmas sort of way. I went out and had some drinks with Adam and we shared a few blissful hours of exchanging dry sarcastic insults. It was much needed fun. We called Lora and tried to get her to come out and meet us, but she couldn't.

Today, Scotty, Rebecca and I went to Dad & Karen's for Christmas #2. It was very laid back and nice and I spent most of my time at the counter eating all of the food. The car ride there was quite fun as well. (Rebecca and I tend to have abnormal amounts of fun when we are in cars together... or anywhere for that matter). Then we went back to Mom's house and Scott and Rebecca headed back to Everett. I just got back from a late dinner with Lora. I'm staying here until tomorrow evening, then I'm heading back to Seattle so I can work on Wednesday morning.

Now that you've had the "in a nutshell" version of my Christmas, here are some pictures... actually, let me rephrase that: Here are MANY pictures!

Monday, December 26, 2005

"We can all know everything without ever knowing why..."

I spent Friday night hanging out with Scotland and Stefani because they were both in Seattle! Stef and I hung out at the bar with Scot until around midnight, and then Stef and I went back to my place and drank lots of wine and ate lots of cheese. Then I worked on Saturday during the day and arrived in Milwaukie on Saturday evening.

I had a good Christmas and I'm about to head off to Christmas #2 at my Dad's house, so I can't write about it right now. Stories and pictures to come soon!

I know, I'm sure that the anticipation is going to be awful for all of you. Just try to deal with it as best you can.

Thursday, December 22, 2005

"Who knows how long this will last, now we've come so far so fast..."

-Don Henley, End of the Innocence

A year ago from today, I was spending my last full day living in Ashland. I hung out with Liz, worked at the library, went out to dinner with Daun, packed, talked to a bagillion people on the phone, and wandered around campus trying to make snapshots in my mind. Saying good-bye to Nancy that day was sooo hard. And of course I forgot something at the library so she had to come drop it off the next morning and we had to say good-bye all over again.

I remember that night so well. It hadn't fully sunk in that I was REALLY leaving. I went home to my apartment and did the rest of my packing. Jacob had already left for California a little more than a week before, so I was alone. It was weird because his stuff was still all over the place but my room was completely bare. I finished packing around 11 PM. I put on some really pretty celtic music, lit some candles, turned off the lights, and sat on our kitchen counter and just stared around the apartment and reflected on my time in Ashland. I seriously sat there for hours, just thinking about everything. Then I finally went to bed.

The next morning it really hit me. I had plans to meet Rachal for breakfast. I woke up and saw that I had a message and it was from Rachal, saying that she was stuck in Medford. She was so sad, and that's when it REALLY hit me that I was leaving. Nancy dropped by with the mug that I had left at the library and we said good-bye again and I spent the day making sure that I had all of my stuff out of the apartment. I momentarily paused to take this picture:

It is so bizarre that all of that was only a year ago. So much has happened this year and I feel like I've been in Seattle for so much longer than I actually have. I still don't know exactly what inspired me to move here. I just had a hunch that I would like it here, and I guess I was right. But still, it was hard. Leaving Ashland was like leaving a part of me behind. I had such a strong foundation there, so many people that I loved, a place that felt like such an important part of me. I can still picture it so vividly that if I shut my eyes, I can almost be back there.

This year has been about trying to create a new home for myself, while still trying to maintain those great bonds that I made when I was in Ashland, trying to find a balance without losing out on the present, but making sure to not leave anything important behind. Building new friendships, maintaining current friendships, and repairing bonds that were almost lost.

This has been an amazing year. I feel like I've grown and changed SO much, but not in ways that I could ever put into words. I guess you'll just have to take my word for it.

ashland halloween

"When we finally do change, I don't think it happens like an earthquake or an explosion, where all of a sudden we're like this different person. I think it's smaller than that. The kind of thing most people wouldn't even notice unless they looked at us really, really close. Which, thank God, they never do. But you notice it. Inside you that change feels like a world of difference. And you hope this is it. This is the person you get to be forever... that you'll never have to change again."

Sunday, December 18, 2005

"Deep greens and blues are the colors I choose..."

-James Taylor, Sweet Baby James

I'm soooo looking forward to Christmas, mainly because it will be my first day off in a bagillion years. (Give or take a year). I get to see my Mommy and my Ernie and my Milwaukie and I even have plans to see my Adam and possibly my Lora. (Mine mine mine they're alllll mine!!!)

I had a long day. Not bad, just long. I got up at 6:30 AM and was feeling sorry for myself, but then I remembered that just last week I would've already been starting my shift at 6 AM, and then I felt a little better. I didn't have time to eat, so I went to "gasp" McDonalds. I feel kind of dirty about that because I haven't had fast food in a really long time. But whatever, you do what you have to do, and to be honest, I still love their breakfast sandwhiches!

It was an insane day at the sock store. Busy busy busy, everybody is doing their Christmas Shopping at the last minute. (Not that I can complain, I ran over to Barnes and Noble on my break and finished mine). I spent all day at the cash register while person after person kept buying and buying. But it was actually kind of fun. We get some really cool people that come in to that store. Aside from the throbbing pain in my knees, it was one of my better work days.

I wandered outside on my last break and there was a very wide array of street musicians. Two drummers, a singer-guy with his guitar, three black guys singing A capella and they were amazing, and a Native American band that is out on the street quite often. And all these people were within three blocks of eachother! It was very cool. I just wandered around and listened to them until my break was over. I love love love Seattle. I love it more and more every day. This is such a great place.

There was a significant amount of moms coming in with their kids doing shopping. I was very observant of the moms with their kids, maybe because I'm excited that I get to see my mom in a couple of days. There were many amusing mother/child moments, but my favorite was when a little boy was begging his mom to get him a friendship bracelet and the mom kept saying "no" and eventually dragged the boy out of the store. I could hear the boy saying "but MOM, now I'm going to DIE", over and over. It was pretty funny.

Seeing all of these parent/child moments reminded me of a day that I hadn't thought about in a long time. I don't remember how old I was exactly, but I do know that I was in late elementary school. Mom took the day off of work, (not a common occurance), and she let Scott and Katie and I skip school, (A VERY not common occurance), and the four of us spent the whole day wandering around Portland and shopping. It was sooo much fun. I miss those days.

You Are a Bright Christmas Tree

For you, the holidays are all about fun and seasonal favorites.

You are into all things Christmas, even if they're a little tacky.

Thursday, December 15, 2005

"Drag a salted kiss from this cup of bliss, watch a new lie twist on the breeze..."

-David Gray, Lately

I still haven't fully grasped that I don't have to get up for 6 AM shifts anymore. It is already having a huge impact on my state of mind, and the change is a very good one. I'm still always tired, but at least it is a kind of tired that doesn't make me feel like I'm going to pass out at various points of the day.

I do, however, still have to get up early on Thursdays to watch Erin's kid from 6 AM to 7 AM. I headed over this morning and the sidewalks were SO icy and slippery. I have a constant fear of falling and breaking my arm (not great for pianists), so I walked really slow and got there seven minutes late. Then Erin left and about five minutes later, her son's dad showed up. Erin didn't know that he was going to be there, so she called and said that I could leave. So then I went back home (very slowly), and went back to sleep for a few hours. Then I practiced until I had to go to work, and I memorized another page of my Bach Suite!

Then I headed off to work, which was okay I guess. Kinda stressful, but its retail and its the holidays, so what do you expect?

Then Amber and I went to the store since we were out of food, then we came home and I was greeted by a special surprise!
A Picture Share!
Okay, I know you all are probably thinking, "Erin, its just a counter." But there is something that you all may not know: Amber and I are slobs. Seeing the counter this clean was a moment to go down in history.

Then we decorated our tree. It is soooo precious. Amber and I are very proud of it.
A Picture Share!

Oooh, and big news....

Are you ready?

Drum roll please...



I love it here.

Tuesday, December 13, 2005

"I really can't believe it, with you in this torn little corner of my life."

-Michelle Tea

I was on the phone last night until a little after 11 PM with Meagan, which was mucho-funno because it had been quite some time since Meagan and I have communicated without a computer. We did eventually have to get off the phone, since we both had obligations this morning.

My obligation was my last day at Old Navy. This morning's shift started at 6 AM... ugh. It is never easy to be at work by 6 AM. Getting out of bed on those mornings is so hard, especially now that it is so cold. But I do have a bit of a routine going, and I've become pretty good at getting ready quickly even when I'm still half asleep.

Today, however...

I woke up and felt AWFUL. My first thought was "Oooh no, I'm getting sick", because my whole body just felt heavy and tired and I literally could barely keep my eyes open. I somehow got out of bed, got dressed, made coffee, and ate a bowl of cereal. By this point of my routine I'm usually slowly starting to come to grips with the fact that yet another day has started. Today, however, that was not happening. I still felt like I was asleep, and my teeth were chattering and I felt AWFUL. Even so, I mustered up what little bit of life that I had and headed towards the door. I grabbed my cell phone on the way out and glanced at it. It said that the time was 1:14 AM.

1:14 AM.

1:14 AM?


I obviously went back to bed, but I think that my brain was very thrown off by this start to the day because for the next four hours I proceeded to have very strange dreams that caused me to wake up every thirty minutes, making me feel like I never actually went back to sleep. Sigh. I'm sure you can imagine how fresh and awake I felt when I got to Old Navy at 6 AM. Ugh. It was an okay morning though. I got to work with some of my favorite people one last time. It was a good job. But working at 6 AM was just too much for me. As I proved with today's piano lesson.

I had an awful piano lesson today. It was so bad that it was embarrasing. I was so tired, probably due to my night of brain-confusion, and I could not get myself to do anything productive at my lesson. I honestly couldn't even focus enough to listen to what my teacher was saying to me. I was trying to listen, but I was sooo out of it! And my playing was seriously painful to listen to. It was very discouraging. To make it worse, my teacher wasn't even mad, but I could tell that he felt sorry for me. At one point he said "This isn't an exam, its just a lesson. Don't worry, you don't have to play perfect for me!" Oh gees... I was seriously fighting the urge to pay him for the lesson and just leave early. It was a complete waste of time. Blech. I got out of my lesson and feeling so down about everything. I called Stefani and she listened to my piano-bitching and that kind of helped.

Then Amber-face picked me up and we went to Shari's for our first time in over a month, which is a long time for us! Then we went and got our Christmas tree!!!! Its perfect!!! Its little and cute, just like Ernie.

A Picture Share!

Saturday, December 10, 2005

"To going insane, going against the grain, going mad..."


Before I forget to mention it, my Mommy started a blog!!!

Okay, so its kind of been a crazy week. I've been working alot because of the holidays, and still trying to focus on practicing, and trying to focus on my actual life... and every now and then I've been trying to sleep.

Working retail in downtown Seattle during the holiday season can be really aggravating or really fun, depending on what mood I'm in. Its so crazy and hectic, but there is also something really cool about it. I know I've said this before, but I love Seattle SO much. I can see myself living here for a long time. Every time I get off of work at night and open the doors to go outside and see the city all lit up, I'm just overwhelmed with this feeling of being so glad that I moved here. I know that when I get older I'll want to live in a place that is a little smaller and more calm and more nature-esque, but at this point in my life, this is the perfect place for me.

I had a good time last night. I worked from 7 AM to 3:30 at the sock store. There has kinda sorta been some stuff going on in these last few days. (Sorry for being cryptic folks, but I don't like to delve to deep in my blogs). Anyways, I really needed some time to think and clear my head and I also needed to be away from people. Somewhere where I couldn't answer my phone, somewhere where I wouldn't be in the middle of the hustle and bustle of the city, somewhere where I didn't have to talk to anybody. So I went and saw RENT for my third time. I think it will have to be my last time because I'm broke. But like I said, I really needed to get away, and not only do I absolutely LOVE that movie, but I'm trying to be supportive towards my future boyfriend by supporting his movie. (He doesn't know me yet, but don't you worry, he will). After the movie I was walking to the bus stop and there was an AMAZING drummer playing on the corner in front of Old Navy. I stood and watched him for a long time, and then some guy started brake-dancing right there on the sidewalk. It was so cool.

Anyways, like I said, its been a crazy exhausting week. But its all gonna be okay now. No worries.

Here are some pictures of the humble abode of Amber and Erin:

Our fridge:

Presents from my sister-face:

Our chocolate calendars that make us happy:

Our Periodic Table of Mixology:

And yes, we still have "the" drink:

Tuesday, December 06, 2005

"I should tell I blew the candle out just to get back in..."


Life has been crazy lately. I know that I must be overwhelmed if I work in downtown Seattle and have barely noticed that it is the Christmas season.

Before I continue, I'm stealing this picture from Rebecca's blog because it totally shows how cool Scotty and I are.

Amber and I went and saw Rent last night. It was the first time that I've seen the same movie twice in the theater in a long time. Amber loved it. We both cried and cried. I cried way more than the first time... sigh.

I worked at Old Navy at 6 AM this morning, then came back here and practiced for a little bit before my lesson. My lesson was GREAT as usual, but TIRING as usual. My teacher told me that if I want to start having two hour lessons then he'll only charge me for an hour. This makes me a happy poodle!

I finished Harry Potter! It was a very cute book and it definetly kept me entertained. And I feel "in the loop", which isn't something that I usually feel.

Oh, and one more thing.... EEEEEEEEEEP!!!

Monday, December 05, 2005

"Keep it. There's more of me where that came from."

-Michelle Tea

Your 2005 Song Is

Mr. Brightside by The Killers

"It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this
It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss"

Let's just say you're happy to be done with 2005!

I was just listening to this song last night! It scares me that the blogthings know me. I wonder if the Blogthing-God is watching me right now. Trippy...

Saturday, December 03, 2005

Hmmm... YA THINK?!?

You Have a Melancholic Temperament

Introspective and reflective, you think about everything and anything.
You are a soft-hearted daydreamer. You long for your ideal life.
You love silence and solitude. Everyday life is usually too chaotic for you.

Given enough time alone, it's easy for you to find inner peace.
You tend to be spiritual, having found your own meaning of life.
Wise and patient, you can help people through difficult times.

At your worst, you brood and sulk. Your negative thoughts can trap you.
You are reserved and withdrawn. This makes it hard to connect to others.
You tend to over think small things, making decisions difficult.

"The changing of seasons prepares me again..."

-Alison Krauss, Get Me Through December

Its been snowing off and on and it is pretty!

Yesterday was a pretty good day, despite the fact that I had to get up ridiculously early for the fifth morning in a row. Erin and I got to the sock store at 7 AM to stock the store, (Erin is my boss, I'm not talking about myself in the third person), and I worked until 3:30 PM but the day somehow went by fast even though I was really tired. Then I went home and kinda-sorta practiced for a couple of hours. (I "played" piano, but I don't feel certain that I "practiced" piano).

Look, I'm moody and dramatic.

Then I headed downtown. I was on my way to play piano for the reception of the opening night of Little Women at the theatre that Rebecca just got a job at. It was super fun. I drank wine, played cheesy Christmas music, and got payed for it! Yay.

I did make a slight mistake when I gave my camera to Scotty so he could entertain himself. Here are the results: