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Wednesday, November 30, 2005

Whoa, I wasn't expecting this result!

The Devil Card
You are the Devil card. The Devil is based on the
figure Pan, Lord of the Dance. The earthy
physicality of the devil breeds lust. The
devil's call to return to primal instincts
often creates conflict in a society in which
many of these instincts must be kept under
control. Challenges posed by our physical
bodies can be overcome by strength in the
mental, emotional, and spiritual realms. Pan is
also a symbol of enjoyment and rules our
material creativity. The devil knows physical
pleasure and how to manipulate the physical
world. Material creativity finds its output in
such things as dance, pottery, gardening, and
sex. The self-actualized person is able to
accept the sensuality and usefulness of the
devil's gifts while remaining in control of any
darker urges. Image from The Stone Tarot deck.

Which Tarot Card Are You?
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Monday, November 28, 2005

"It's so mysterious, the land of tears."

-The Little Prince

This is the only day off that I'll have for the next six days, so I have been practicing like crazy. I'm slowly starting to memorize all of my pieces, and my grad school apps should be done by the end of the week.

I got eight hours of sleep but I still feel totally drained. Amber-face is really sick so I've been drinking lots of water and apple cider, trying to stop it from getting to me too.

You are the flower.

Saint Exupery's 'The Little Prince' Quiz.
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So much to think about, so little time... I think I'll keep practicing until 7:30 and then read The Little Prince. I was going to finish Harry Potter, but I'll do that tomorrow. This is definetly a Little Prince kind of night.

Sunday, November 27, 2005

"The only thing I'll ever ask of you, you gotta promise not to stop when I say when."


The Seattle Monorail had a little accident last night when I was at work. the two cars collided at the sides. Nobody got seriously injured or anything, so I don't feel bad in saying that I think it looks really cool. The cars are still there. I have no idea how they plan to get them down!
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Jacob ended up staying longer than originally planned. He was going to leave on Saturday morning, but plans kept changing, you know how that is. His visit mixed with my crazy work schedule has resulted in me being officially exhausted, but that's okay because I have tomorrow off. Him and Toby got to reunite after over a year of being separated and they are now officially best friends.
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I worked pretty much all day yesterday until 8:30 PM. Then Jacob picked me up and we drove around downtown then eventually came back to my place and played with Toby. Well, it was more like Toby was frantically chewing on Jacob and I, or whatever he could get into his teeth. But I suppose that some people would consider that playing, right? Jacob hung around until I had to go to work this morning at eleven, then he dropped me off and headed back to San Fransisco after three failed attempts to leave Seattle. It was nice to have him here, even though it was for such a short time and my work schedule took up most of that time.
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I just got back from seeing Rent with Rebecca. I know that it has been getting mixed reviews, but I really loved it! Although I must say that it was a tad bit (alot) emotional for me, especially with these last few days being what they were. I totally cried at the end during the last number. Its such a great story, but gosh darnit, it totally tugs at your heart strings.

But I guess that's what makes it so gosh darn good.
A Picture Share!

Friday, November 25, 2005

"Its beginning to look alot like Christmas..."


I have to blog quickly because Amber and I have to watch the recording of America's Next Top Model before I have to go to work.

I had a really good Thanksgiving. It was so good to see Kai and Ben, and the three other guys that came were all from Ashland, and I had already known all of them pretty well, so that was a fun surprise!

I worked this morning at Old Navy. It was INSANE!!! We opened at 7 AM and there was a huge crowd waiting to come in! I've never seen so many people in one place! CRAZY!!! Now I'm home for two hours, then I go BACK to work until 9:30 PM. So the craziness will continue.

Then I'm going to hang out with Jacob. Because he is going to be here. For like, twelve hours. It was pretty short notice. But isn't it always?

Thursday, November 24, 2005

"Its not what you fling, its the fling itself."

-From the episode of Northern Exposure that I just finished watching.

Happy Thanksgiving everybody!

So, this is my first Thanksgiving with absolutely no members of my family with me. I decided to stay in Seattle about a month ago when I got an invitation from Ben and Kai to come have Thanksgiving with them. They live here in Seattle but I haven't had a chance to hang out with either of them yet, and it just seemed like a fun idea. Plus, Thanksgiving is sandwhiched in between my crazy work schedule, so staying here is also much more convenient.

I remember last year at this time and how different everything was. I went home for Thanksgiving mainly to escape Ashland. Things were awful with Jacob and I was in a really strange state of mind since I was a month away from leaving Ashland, and I just wanted to go and hide at my mommy's house for a day. So at the last minute I hitched a ride with Adam and Ian back to Milwaukie, and it turned out to be a really nice holiday.

Now here I am in Seattle about to go spend the holiday with my long lost music department friends, which is appropriate, since the music department was (is) pretty much my second family.

Its sooo weird, remembering last year at this time. And all the years before that... life keeps throwing all of these weird twists and turns at me. I've pretty much given up on trying to figure out how everything is going to work itself out. I'm just trying to hang on.

Anyways, here are the lyrics to a song that always makes me feel warm and happy. Enjoy, and have a good holiday.

When the mountain touches the valley
All the clouds are taught to fly
As our souls will leave this land most peacefully
Though our minds be filled with questions
In our hearts we'll understand
When the river meets the sea

Like a flower that has blossomed
In this dry and barren sand
We are born and born again most gracefully
Plus the winds of time will take us
With a sure and steady hand
When the river meets the sea

Patience my brothers
And patience my son
In that sweet and final hour
Truth and justice will be done

Like a baby when it is sleeping
In its mother's loving arms
What a newborn baby dreams is a mystery (a mystery)

But this life will find a purpose
And in time we'll understand
When the river meets the sea
When the river meets the almighty sea

A Picture Share!
ashland halloween
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Wednesday, November 23, 2005

"Look up at the sky. Ask yourself, has the sheep eaten the flower or not?' And you'll see how everything changes."

-The Little Prince

Today did not start off as a good day. I had to get up super early for work, which is REALLY starting to take its toll on me. It wasn't so bad when I just had to do two mornings a week for Old Navy. But now I'm doing two additional mornings a week for the sock store, due to the holiday season, and it is killing me. I finally gave up and got Leslie to take one of the mornings, so now I only have one super early morning a week at the sock store. Sigh. Anyways, I was in a very not good mood all morning. The kind of mood where you are giving yourself mental pep talks and doing deep breathing so you don't completely lose your sanity. It was just NOT a good morning. To be honest, I was feeling pretty gosh darn down.

But THEN...

Guess who called me? GINA!!! Guess where she was calling me from? SEATTLE!!! Turns out that she was in town to go check out Western Washington University! So she showed up at my work ten minutes before my shift was over and I was sooo happy. Her timing was PERFECT. We weren't sure what we wanted to do, and then I remembered that I wanted to bring some rum to Kai and Ben's for Thanksgiving tomorrow. (I don't know if I mentioned that I'm not going home for Thanksgiving... but I'll blog about that tomorrow).

So Gina and I set out to find a liquor store, but we couldn't find one. Instead we came back here and played piano for a couple of hours. It was really fun. Then Gina had to go. But I'm just so happy that I got to see her. It was a much needed breath of fresh air.

A Picture Share!

Monday, November 21, 2005

"Or is it only that there are so few of us, now, who were young together?"

-The Mists of Avalon

I have a confession. I love Christmas decorations, I love Christmas music, I love Christmas displays. (Okay, that was actually three confessions. Sue me). Amber shares these loves with me. Last night, we decided that it was time to decorate our apartment. We couldn't really go ALL out, partly because our apartment is only a few square feet wide, but mainly because Toby will eat anything that he can get his paws on.

So today when I got off of work, Amber and I went to Target and endulged in all the bliss that comes with our favorite place ever. We found some great Christmas lights and some fun garland to wrap around them.
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We did have a moment of sadness when we found the COMPLETE set of Sex and the City and realized that we can't even dream of affording it.
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But don't worry! The world once again became a happy place when Amber and I discovered a Spider Man toilet seat. We bought it! We really did! We aren't Spider Man fans, but its really cool anyways!
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Then we decided that we needed some sort of take-out. Since we live in the International District, we decided that it was time to try out one of our neighborhood resteraunts. So we got some Chinese food and it was SOOO GOOD. We tacked the menu up on our wall and decided that we are eventually going to work our way through the whole thing. Its good to have goals. We watched the Charlie Brown Christmas Special while we ate, then we decorated our little home.

Now we are both getting ready to go to bed early. Can you blame us? We had a long day!

Sunday, November 20, 2005

"All morons hate it when you call them a moron."

-The Catcher in the Rye

Today was a pretty good day. I got ELEVEN hours of sleep last night!!!! It felt SOOO good!!!

I spent the first part of the day practicing, then I went to work at the sock store, where Drew and I were having a little TOO much fun. But spending too much time in a sock store can make you a little kooky.
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Then, right as I was getting off of work, I got a call from Scotty-face, returning a message that I left for him this morning asking if him and Rebecca wanted to meet downtown for dinner. He said that they weren't really in the mood, so I went home. As I got in my door and started to take off my coat, I got a call from Rebecca saying that they changed their minds. So I zipped my coat back up and went BACK downtown. Normally that wouldn't have been a chore, except for the fact that my bus was twenty minutes late. Then when I finally got on it, the bus broke down. But I only had to walk six or seven blocks, which is nothing to me. After a very brisk walk, I arrived safely at Red Robin where Scotty and Rebecca were waiting. And we had mucho fun-o.
A Picture Share!
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I'm drinking apple cider right now. That has nothing to do with this blog. But just incase you are reading this and wondering "I wonder if Erin is drinking or eating right now", there you go. Apple Cider. La la la.

You Are Pecan Pie Soda

Sweet, but totally nuts


Its Adam's birthday, so naturally I have to blog about Adam!

Adam is a great great friend of mine who I am very happy to know. Lately I have been awful about e-mailing and/or calling, and although Adam is SLIGHTLY (but only "slightly") better at calling, he usually does so when I am happily in sleepy-land. So we haven't been perfect about being in touch lately.

But it doesn't matter, because Adam is one of those buddies that I never worry about losing touch with. I know that we could go forty years without talking and then one day randomly run into eachother on some busy street, then start talking, then end up at a bar somewhere running up a tab, or back at his place watching a movie that we have to pause every two minutes so we can talk about some subject that will likely take a million hours to discuss, therefore we will end up spending the entire night trying to get through the movie.

I like having friends like that, that I know I will always be able to consider a friend.

Regardless, I'm going to try to improve my e-mail/phone skills.

Crackbag, I'm glad I know you. You helped me survive Ashland, and put up with my ramblings. Which proves that you're either a great friend, or totally insane.

Either way... Happy Birthday.

Saturday, November 19, 2005

"How young I was then, how young we both were... mercifully young, for we knew not what we did."

-The Mists of Avalon

You Are Cherry Pie

You're the perfect combo of innocent and sexy
Those who like you enjoy a contradiction

Hee hee, people love me for my contradiction... its true!

Wednesday, November 16, 2005


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"I'm not good at taking my own advice, she said, but that doesn't mean I don't know what's right."

-Brian Andreas

Filling out grad school stuff makes me shaky!!! (Well, the four cups of coffee that I've had in the last two hours might also be a factor).

I was looking at the audition schedule for Cleveland, and the time slots are from 8:45 AM to 5 PM!!! And they say that you will be needed for that entire time slot!!! What on Earth could take that long?!? I really hope that there are no electric shock treatments involved. That might make me feel kinda weird.

Nervous! EEEEEEEEEEEEEEP!!! I've officially decided that if I don't get into grad school, then I'm going to quit what I'm doing now and find a way to make piano a more active part of my life. No matter what. So either way, my life will be changing alot in the next year. Again. And that makes me excited. And nervous. And shaky. (Or maybe it IS just the coffee)!

Grad school auditions feel so much more scary than undergrad auditions. Undergrad was just about showing that I could play at the required level, and I knew that I could, so it wasn't a big deal. But now... its about showing that I'm GREAT.

And frankly, (do you mind if I call you Frankly), when I'm working 35-50 hours a week and trying to get grad apps done, and trying to maintain a form of a life, I don't feel like I have the time to be GREAT.

Oh well. Time will tell. If grad school doesn't work out, something else will. If that's one thing I've learned, time has a way of pushing you where you're supposed to go.

I just can't wait to see what I'll be doing in a year. I love not knowing. I love change.

Oh, and I love Northern Exposure. I'm going to kidnap Chris and keep him all for myself and make him read to me everynight. That would be cool.

Okay, enough of this nonsense. I'm going to go try to memorize some more of my Bach Suite before I have to go to work.

"I meant to always carry it with me; the closest, realest face, under all the shadows of faces, at the very bottom of my memory."

-Willa Cather, My Antonia

I've been spending the morning working on grad school applications, trying to get some stuff done before I go to work. But first I let myself watch an episode of Northern Exposure. It took immense amounts of self-discipline to turn off the TV and work on my to-do list. I decided to take a break to blog, because the passage that was read at the end of the episode that I just watched was sooo pretty that I had to share it with all of you out there in blog land. Here it is:

"When from a long distant past nothing persists, after the people are dead, after things are broken and scattered, still alone, more persistent, more faithful, the smell and taste of things remain poised a long, long time like souls, ready to remind us, waiting, hoping for their moment amid the ruins of all the rest, and bear unfaltering in the tiny, almost impalpable drop of their essence, the vast structure of recollection."

It made me cry. But in that really good way that only really good writing can do.

Monday, November 14, 2005

"It was my fault you never knew. But you were just as silly as I was. Try to be happy... Put that glass thing down. I don't want it anymore."

-The Flower, to The Little Prince

I feel like I haven't written in this blog in months. I mean, obviously I have, but it doesn't feel like it. I've just been writing entries to fill space, to keep everyone updated, to let everyone know that I'm still alive. I usually try to keep my blog light, but I'm in the mood to be moody. Get it? In the mood to be moody? Um, yeah, anyways...

There is kinda sorta alot going on. Alot of things that have been floating around in my head un-attended are all of the sudden at that point where I can't ignore them anymore. Decisions to make, priorities to re-evaluate... blah. I'm tired.

I've always admired my mom for a bagillion different reasons, but one thing that I admire about her the most is how selfless she is. In many ways, she put her life on hold to raise Scott, Katie and I. And it took me a good 20 years to even be able to fully realize and appreciate that. For so many years, I was an angsty ungrateful poodle. She probably knew that when I got older, I would look back and understand how lucky I was. And that probably made it easier. But still, 20 years... 20 years of being selfless and loving and completely devoted before it was REALLY understood. And she didn't have to do that. Lots of parents don't.

I admire that so much, and that is the kind of person that I like to think that I am. I try to be there for the people that I care about, and I do my best to help them as much as I can. However, I don't think I can be as selfless as my mom. I don't think I'm good at helping people that I know don't even realize how much of myself I have to sacrafice in order to help them, especially if they have hurt me in the past.

My mom has also told me that you have to use judgement, and that sometimes the best way that you can help people is to stop being their safety net and to let them fall down on their own, because as a safety net, you are the one that they are falling on! I think that's what I'm having trouble with... I'm just not good at giving up the position as the safety net. I like helping people that I care about, even when I know that it isn't always good for me.

I don't know why I just felt the need to blog about this... hope that it wasn't downer, because it wasn't supposed to be. I just wanted to write about what has been going on. Alot of thinking. Alot of trying to figure stuff out.

I just want to light a candle, write in my journal, drink some wine, and listen to this song over and over. For like, a year.

But I think that I'll go practice instead.

The Movie Of Your Life Is A Black Comedy

In your life, things are so twisted that you just have to laugh.
You may end up insane, but you'll have fun on the way to the asylum.

Your best movie matches: Being John Malkovich, The Royal Tenenbaums, American Psycho

Friday, November 11, 2005

"525,600 minutes - how do you measure a year?"

-Seasons of Love

I was just looking through my blog archives and I can't believe that this was a year ago. I totally remember that day! Weird. Its amazing how many things can change in a year. And how much stays the same all at once. Wow... I'm going to stop that thought process right now before this blog becomes a long tangent about time and change and blah-blah.

I worked this morning, then talked to Gina-face on the phone for awhile. Now I'm going to practice. My life is soooo exciting.

You Failed 8th Grade Science

Sorry, you only got 5/8 correct!

Thursday, November 10, 2005

"You sing a sad song just to turn it around..."

-Had a Bad Day (My current song to listen to over and over)

Thanks to my sister for e-mailing me this survey! I love being able to post a blog without actually having to think of things to write.

 1.  What time is it?  9:32 PM
 2.  Name:  Erin
 3. Nickname:  (Baby) Pez, Erie, Bear, Poodle
 4. Piercing:  two in my ears
 5. What is the most recent movie you've seen in the theatre?   I have absolutely no idea. I think it has been about a million years since I saw a movie in a theatre.
 6. Eye color:   Hazel   
 7. Place of birth:   Portland, Or 
 8. Favorite NEW foods:  Sundried tomato pretzel stuffed with cream cheese. Mmmmmmm... Oh, and the pesto-turkey sandwhiches at Starbucks. (I like coffee shops, can you tell)?
 9. Ever been to Africa:  No 
10. Ever been toilet papering:  I'm not sure... 
 11. Love someone so much it made you cry:  Yes
 12. Been in a car accident:  Yes  - minor ones, nothing big.
13. Croutons or bacon bits:   bacon!  
 14. Favorite day of the week : The days that I don't work.
 15. Favorite restaurant:   Shari's (just so I can stay close to my roots), Red Robin, Farm, House of Thai, Olive Garden, Antonios
 16. Favorite Flower:   I dunno. I guess flowers that are unusual but pretty. Like me.
17. Favorite sport to watch:   Basketball 
 18. Favorite drink:   Double vodka on the rocks.
19. Favorite ice cream:   Depends on my mood.
 20. Disney or Warner Brothers:  Disney  
(numbers 21 and 22 disappeared!)  
 23. How many times you failed your driver's test: I've never taken it? I took the test for my permit and passed on the first time. But that's it folks!  
 24. Before this one, from whom did you get your last e-mail?   From the Mommy.
 25. Which store would you choose to max out your credit card:  Target :  )
26. What do you do most often when you are bored:   I've never been bored. But if I have downtime, I like to color, or read, or write in my journal, or put on some Celtic music and stare out my window, while hugging Lugsy and/or Sugar. 
 27. Bedtime:  Anywhere from 9 PM to 6 AM. Bye-bye sleeping patterns!
 28. Who will respond to this e-mail the quickest?   Well, its a blog, so I guess nobody! But maybe I'll e-mail this too, in which case... maybe Meagan? (I know that she'll respond eventually, I'm just not sure if she'll be the quickest). 
 29. Who is the person you sent this to that is least likely to respond:   the guys 
 30. Who are you the most curious about their responses to this questionnaire?  I guess the people who don't fill it out!
  32. Last person you went to dinner with:  Rebecca, Scotty, Mommy, Ernie and Bill.
34. What are you listening to right now:  The new Sheryl Crow CD.
35. What is your favorite color:   Its all about the earth tones.
 36. How many tattoos do you have:  Two
 37. How many pets do you have?   Well, kind of Ernie, even though he is far away. I don't count Toby. Him and I still have some issues to work out.
38. How many people are you sending this email to?:   I dunno, let me open a new window and check.... Okay, its 15 people.

That's all. Bye.

Your Heart Is Green

Love completes you, but that doesn't mean you seek it out.
When love comes your way, you integrate it peacefully into the rest of you life.

Your flirting style: Laid back

Your lucky first date: Walking around aimlessly and talking

Your dream lover: Is both enthusiastic and calm

What you bring to relationships: Balance

"I wanted to ask you if you enjoyed the storm, tell you how it ate houses, smashed trees, blew in glass, hurt alot of people but I hardly noticed it."

-Michelle Tea

I woke up early this morning to go watch Erin's kid like I do every Thursday. When I got home I went into my room to get another hour of sleep. When I opened my door, this is what I saw:
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I know that cell phone cameras can only do so much, but trust me, it was sooooo pretty. It was like the sunrise was saying "Erin! Open your blinds and look at me!" I didn't end up going back to sleep, instead I just sat on my bed and listened to pretty music and thought about stuff. It was a very nice way to start my day.

I love this time of year. The weather is so great.

Loves and Poodles to all, and to all a good day.

Wednesday, November 09, 2005

"In some way we could never explain on our opposite sides of the Inbetween, we were born to keep eachother company..."

-The Lovely Bones

Amber and I are very big fans of "America's Next Top Model". Every Wednesday, we sit down for an hour of blissful TV joy. We have decided that WE will soon be the next top model. Here are some pictures that show why. In these pictures, we are wearing our Trouble-Hats. Those are the hats that we bought specifically for when we play Trouble. Duh.

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Tyra Banks has NO idea what she is missing.

Monday, November 07, 2005

"Sometimes the city chokes me up with all her jagged beauty..."

-Brooke Wiese

I spent the first part of today working on my application for the University of Washington, and I think I'll have it done by tomorrow! (Famous last words, right?)

Amber and I had super-duper fun today. We actually BOTH had the day off on the SAME day, (!!!), so we went to the happiest place on Earth... Target!!! We spent a long time going up and down the isles of Christmas decorations. Amber and I are the reason that the decorations go up earlier and earlier every year. We love it. We each bought a Christmas CD, and I am listening to one of them right now. And that makes me happy.
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THEN we went to Old Navy so I could see what time I have to go in tomorrow morning, and... I DON'T HAVE TO GO IN TOMORROW!!! They usually schedule me Tuesday and Wednesday, but this week it is Wednesday and Friday. Do you know what this means? IT MEANS THAT I HAVE TWO DAYS OFF IN A ROW!!! This is so foreign to me. I may very well be the most content poodle in the world at this very moment.

Now Amber and I are going to drink some wine, eat some chocolate, and watch American Beauty, because I bought the DVD at Target today for $9.99.

So Adam, go ahead and keep my tape. There, are you happy? Your evil little plan worked.

Sunday, November 06, 2005

!!A morning with the Pez's!!


Blue Steel

Scotty and I wanted to show off our hair

Me and The Mommy!

Jack in the Box -- Fun for the whole family

My brother is sooooo cool.

Me and Rebecca are PRETTY

Mmmm.... yummy picture...

After watching me attempt to eat cardboard, Scotty and Rebecca bought me my very own piece!

Halloween Pictures


"Trying to find an explanation here, for the way some people are..."

-David Gray

I just submitted my application for the Cleveland Institue of Music.

Only three more applications to go.


my little house

Tuesday, November 01, 2005

"This could go on forever if I don't put an end to it and isn't that always the problem..."

-Michelle Tea

I had a good day today, but now I'm soooo tired. But really, when am I ever NOT soooo tired?

I worked at 7 AM today. The folks at Old Navy have finally hired a couple more people for the morning shifts. There used to only be three of us and we could never get everything done and the work just kept piling up. Now with more people, we actually are getting everything done, which makes for a much less stressful shift.

Then I came home and watched the Charlie Brown Thanksgiving show, which I was able to do because of the present that my mommy gave me for my birthday. And I've gotta say, I love Charlie Brown. It still makes me laugh out loud, and I'm glad. I'd be worried if it didn't.

Then I practiced for a little over an hour, then I left to catch the bus to the U-District, and to have my weekly nap. I'm not kidding about the "weekly nap" thing. The bus ride to my piano lesson is a little over half an hour, and every week I fall fast asleep on the bus and wake up just in time for my stop. I try to stay awake, but I'm always so tired and sitting still that long is just too relaxing! I have this fear that I'm going to sleep too long and miss my stop AND my lesson. So today, I woke up three stops before my stop, but I was startled when I woke up and for some reason thought I was at my stop so I got off the bus. As I watched it drive away, I realized I got off too early. Sigh. Luckily I still got to my lesson on time.

My lesson was great today. I feel like I'm making alot of progress on the Scherzo. My teacher is really great. He pushes me really hard and doesn't let me stop trying until I have it right. At times it is really hard (and somewhat annoying) but in the end I'm always glad that he is such a stickler for details because the results are finally starting to show.

On the bus ride back, I started the first Harry Potter book and I am already loving it. I decided that it is time for me to find out what all the hype is about, especially since my family might disown me if I don't.

I guess that Alex is going to be in town on Friday and he is going to be performing in the Steinway building, so that is pretty cool. Then on Saturday my current teacher is giving a recital, so that is pretty cool too!

Okay, I must go work on my grad school essay.