"We find her singing quietly to herself... a song about how many ways her life has changed and how she would like to get her feet back on the ground."
Well folks, I spent a few hours today practicing and got absolutely nowhere. My only comfort is that every music-poodle that I know has had days (or months or years) like the day I had today, where you wonder "When did I forget how to do what I'm supposed to be great at", and you have a huge mix of sadness and anger and guilt. It is really freakin great. Really. It is. No sarcasm here. Anyways, after I realized that it was physically impossible for me to learn anything new, I decided to play through some pieces that I already knew. Nothing too hard, just some pieces that would remind me that at one point I did infact know how to play piano. Excpet that plan back-fired when I couldn't even make it through those without wanting break things. I couldn't even make it through the Brahms Intermezzo in A Major, and that is my favorite piece!!! Sigh...
Anyways, here is yet another survey that I stole from Meagan's blog. I just can't get enough of these things. Maybe I'll quit piano and be a professional blogger. At this point, it seems like a much more promising and realistic goal. Double sigh.
-When was the last time you went to the bathroom outside?
A couple of weeks ago when I was in Ashland. Those walks back from the bar can be a little too long sometimes.
-Which family member do you most resemble?
In looks? Without question, my brother. It is terrifying how much we look alike. As a person? Hopefully my mom... but I'm not sure.
-Do you wear cologne/perfume?
On days that I don't work I wear lotiony stuff, but my boss doesn't like us to wear scents, so if I work then I don't wear lotiony stuff. Wow, that was a very well-constructed sentence.
-Do you wear deodorant?
-Do you ‘clean up nice’?
Yes I do clean up "nice", but I don't clean up "often".
-When was the last time you tripped and fell?
First off to Meagan, your answer to this made me laugh soooo hard. I trip and fall so often that I'm sure I have fallen many times that I'm not remembering, but my last clear memory of tripping and falling was my last morning living in Ashland. It was really icy but I had packed my coffee maker and needed my caffeine fix. I seriously nearly killed myself walking to Starbucks. I must've fallen at least five times. I felt like a total idiot. And a total addict. Oh well.
-Where was the last place you slept besides your home?
Karli's house in Ashland.
-What are you listening to right now?
The Garden State soundtrack. Go buy it if you don't have it. Its great!
-Have you ever started an uncontrollable fire?
Nooooo. But I almost did when I lived with Rachal and accidently put foil in the microwave. Woops.
-Ever run out of gas on the road?
Um, lets see... no.
-Would you rather cut the grass or rake the leaves?
Rake leaves, because I have mowed the lawn soooo many times but I have never ever raked leaves. Just remember kids, never jump into a pile of leaves with a wet sucker.
-Your name spelled backwards?
-What is the last thing you downloaded onto your computer?
I'm not sure I've downloaded anything. Oh wait, I downloaded my free-trial version of AOL!
-Last time you swam in a pool?
Last Sunday at Maly's good-bye party.
-Have you ever been in a school play?
Yeah, I was in a couple of them in a high school. And I played the xylophone and the recorder in an elementary school production. Broadway, here I come!
-How many kids do you want?
Zero. I can't support myself, how am I supposed to support a kid?
-Type of music you dislike the most?
Bad rap. I like good rap, but there is some awful awful rap out there right now. Ick. And I don't mean that it has to be tasteful, because I'm all for non-tasteful stuff if it is done right. But if there's no talent, then get out of my speakers!
-You registered to vote?
I just realized yesterday that I'm not now that I'm in Washington. I'll get on it right away.
-You have cable?
Yes for the internet, no for the TV.
-Ever prank call anybody?
Probably, but I don't remember.
I hate the idea of putting some friends above others. I love all of them in different ways for different reasons. Yay.
-Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving?
-Do you have a garden?
Are you kidding? I have my hands full with Ashlee Simpson!
-What’s your favorite comic strip?
I haven't read the comics in a very long time, but I always liked Garfield. We have the same sense of humor.
-Bath or shower, morning or night?
I prefer to shower in the morning, but I shower at night if I work at Old Navy in the morning.
-Best movie you’ve seen in the past month?
Man, I don't even know if I've watched a whole movie in the past month...
-Favorite pizza topping?
Peppers and Mushrooms. Mmmmmmm....
-Chips or popcorn?
-What color lipstick do you usually wear?
Usually something dark, to match my soul.
-Have you ever smoked peanut shells?
Uh, no, but the person who wrote this survey probably has!
-Orange juice or apple?
Orange Juice please.
-Favorite type of chocolate bar?
Milky Way Midnight.
-When was the last time you voted at the polls?
I've only voted by mail.
-Last time you ate a homegrown tomato?
Probably when I was at my mommy's house.
-Are you a good cook?
I'm good at baking, but I don't have much experience with cooking.
-Ever order anything from an infomercial?
-Sprite or 7-Up?
-Have you ever had to wear a uniform to work?
Yes, at a few different jobs.
-Ever thrown up in Public?
Yes. And boy am I proud of that!
-Would you prefer being a millionaire or finding true love?
Okay, am I the most shallow person in the world for answering "millionaire"? I mean, love is great and I'm not brushing it off completely, but I would gladly exchange "the love of my life" for some run-of-the-mill lovers if it meant I could be a millionaire. Sue me. (And hey, if I was a millionaire, you really COULD sue me! See?)
-Do you believe in love at first sight?
I don't think so, but I really really really believe in InsaneCrazyChemistry at first sight.
-Can ex’s be friends?
Hmmm, do I technicially even HAVE an ex-boyfriend? Not sure... but if you're asking if "guys that you were at one point involved with before you realized that they had a girlfriend in the wings" can be friends, then... I think so. I think they can. I'll let you know how it turns out.
-Who was the last person you visited in a hospital?
I honestly can't recall... which I think is a very good thing.
-What message is on your answering machine?
Something short, unoriginal and boring.
-What do you think about the most?
I alternate between obsessing about the fact that I'll never be financially stabe and the thought that I am the poorest excuse for a music student that there ever was.
-Favorite form of travel?
A row boat. Okay, not really, but I'm reading The Mists of Avalon and I've been fantasizing about taking a nap in a row boat next to a waterfall. Because I'm really cool.
-Ever drink rotten milk?
Not on purpose... gag.
-What do you think of the person who posted this ahead of you?
I think that I miss her very very very very very very very very much!!!